When you get angry and despondent enough with
the political system your ears begin to open to anyone’s message, no matter how
bigoted it may be.
But what about the journey back. The one that takes you
back to the real world. The world of human beings rather than flags and
culture.
When I realised the BNP was not for me. That their
message was full of intolerance and bigotry. I didn't just think “phew that was
a lucky escape” and walk away with a completely different mind-set.
It’s not that easy.
When I got angry and joined the party, with membership
came the propaganda .The flag, St George, over infatuation with historical
events etc.
I have to admit I never really bought into any of it, but
it was expected so I kind of went along with the flow. And yes up to a point I
did fall for some of the crap.
So what do you do when you walk away? Just go back to
normal life.
No you feel like ‘okay I got that wrong but I still feel
strongly about many things that they feel about’. So after a time of readjustment
I decided to get active again. I saw a video for the English Democrats. With the
slogan ‘were not right not left just English’. Hmm they seem more up my street;
maybe I shall give them a go.
So I joined them. After all they were still nationalists
but without the racism?[or so I thought] This brief alliance lasted only a few months. Luckily
for me the BNP started to implode and many of the hierarchy jumped ship to this
party. The way that they were so easily accepted proved to me that British Nationalism
or English Nationalism, it didn't matter, both were backward and regressive. So
I was politically homeless again.
A few months go by then there was a UKIP meeting in my city.
Off I went to this.
‘Could these be the ones? Definitely not racist. Just
wanting away from the European Union and all the rubbish that comes with it!
This relationship was even shorter. I quickly came to the
conclusion that it was just a club for Euro skeptics who didn't really do anything.
No local politics no campaigning etc.It was anti-Europe but really didn't have any plan for after Europe.
Now many people will call me for all this jumping ship. But
to me it was learning curve and in a way ‘deprogramming’ I was venting all the
anger I still felt against the political elite but in a more positive way.
After all I had gone from the openly racist BNP to the covertly racist English Democrats,
then to the Europhobic UKIP. Even if there were somewhere else to go- I had had
enough!
When I left the BNP in disgust I had to re-evaluate
myself. I had to find what my politics were. I can imagine it’s what someone who has just turned their back on religion must do. You won’t just wake up one day and think well that’s all a crock of
shit isn't it. Smile and get on with your life.
I should imagine many people have to go on a journey
until they find something they are comfortable with. Thought processes are not
that easy to get rid off. No matter how short a time you've nurtured them.
The reason I started this blog was to try and show that nationalism
in any form no matter how watered down, is bad. It’s divisive regressive and
holds us as people back.
Flags are just pieces of coloured cloth. Culture is just something
that our parents and grandparents have instilled into us. More often than not
this too is divisive and regressive as well.
Religion; well that is just the most evil control structure
that mankind has ever come up with.
All of these do one thing and one thing only. They separate
us from our neighbors. From our cousins in other countries. And most of all
from peace, both within ourselves and in the wider world.
One final thing does this mean I’m a sell out and that I've
changed my political ground from right to left. No not at all.
I’m neither. I was never right or left to start with. We want to put people in boxes. Left or right.
Why?
I want open borders, free movement of people an EU that
is not corrupt and is democratic. But unlike the post-modern left and cultural apologists
I’m a realist.I take into account human nature, and don't think every single immigrant that comes here wants to live in a free society.Or that we have to bend over backwards to accommodate stupid archaic belief systems.
These idealistic fools have created most of the problems we
face in the west, mass immigration ,Islamism to name but two.And the most most divisive issue of them all; multiculturalism. I would rather Britain was a nation of people, just people. Not a nation of White communities,Black Communities or Muslim communities.
Wouldn't it be good if rather than people taking extreme sides
of the argument? We could actually put our efforts into finding solutions that
work?
To paraphrase the so called civic nationalists of the ‘English
Democrats’.
I’m not left not right just human.